I have none.
The further into this forced widowhood I traverse, the more bizarre my frame of time reference eludes me. I have found myself sitting in front of the “tv”, watching nonsense, on YT, or Prime Video, or Netflix, or whatever I happen to find to watch, for hours on end without even knowing that time is going by, and at such a rate.
When I do snap out of my trances, I immediately get up, and do something, like cleaning out a tote, and dealing with whatever happens to be inside the tote. Or, vacuuming the floors, again, as that needs to be done almost every day. There’s so much black dust coming in the windows, that it makes me wonder if, when I’m out, and about, should I still be wearing a mask? Lot’s of people do.
Most of the day goes by without my notice, unless I’ve made a commitment to doing laundry, but since it’s only my clothes that need cleaning, and the Lord knows I have tons of tops, and shorts to wear, that hasn’t happened much since I’ve been solo.
I try to have a good sized breakfast, that way, if I get caught up in the nothingness of another day, and I miss lunch, there’s still the possibility of dinner. I say that because last night I had dinner at 7:15pm. In bed by 9:30p, then up again at 1:30a this morning. I stayed up for about an hour, then back to sleep until 8a.
As I’m a morning person, I like being up, and moving by 7:30-8a. I take my shower, start my hour of reflection, do a 15 minute exercise routine, take a 1k walk around the park, then have my breakfast. I call it breakfast because it’s the first time I have anything to eat in a day, but it’s usually around 11a that I eat it. I try to get back outside around 2p to take another walk, then come back in, and am ready for a nap. No, I don’t actually take a nap, though I’d like to, I usually find something to do to stay busy for a little bit.
Anyway, I’ve got enough faith to know that I’m not completely alone, only physically. I know that soon, I’ll have Javi to spend a little time with, and that’ll be nice.
Until next time, stay happy, and healthy in the Lord.